On a black day, joy overflowing,
When mind is still submerged in mirth and revelry,
Somewhere, someplace i have been to, is washed away.
In tears and agony, the Tsunami engulfs the land.
All the human race, claims the ultimate power,
But all it takes from my mother is a whisker.
Everything known in the square radius
Brought down in a blink of a second.
For good or for bad, i cannot judge.
Everything has a meaning but maybe not.
I cannot extend my hand for help, this far away,
But here is my gift, to all ye souls rejoined with my mother.
This petty money would not save the day
But all i can do is offer it and pray.
Peace take me and offer serenity
Burn my agony and blessed be thee.
That is that for which words exist not, to explain ;
That is everywhere and it is That we see.
That we feel, we sense, we hear without reason to complain
That is in every matter, stars, and from the mountains to sea.
It is That which is alive, and That which isn’t.
It is That which stays and That which doesn’t.
It is That which exists and nothing else does.
It is That which creates energy and That which takes.
That which is seen and That which radiates,
That which reflects and that we cannot see
That which is physical and that with no form
That which is everything there is, was, ever will be.
What name do i give That, O Thee.
Time passes by, as usual, for nothing it seems to care,
Creating the life and memories in its silent ways.
This miniscule being stuck here, awaiting the next nightmare
Just vegetates in unthinkable precision for the past few days.
Why this weird lump in the throat, the passion,
The fire, the spirit, the love, the feel.
What doth all this energy, Fusion and Fission,
Mean against the chaos in the mind that kills ?
That beautiful feeling living alone once
Has created this monster that hates company.
The pride without which though it hurts
But hurts even more to live with it.
Sanity so very delicate to preserve
Amidst such vagary of doubts and fears.
What thee fear destroys all ye fights for
But fear does seem hold the sanity here.
Come out of the shell, and live free
Without limits to the mind and life.
This mind is late on its quest, for the green tree
But better late than never for my time still is alive.
This month is definitely something that i might remember for a long long time to come .. I’ve got no count on the number of new things i did, i learnt, new people i met, things i created. Freaks me out trying to count them all ! Maybe i might have done much more before but what’s important here is that the element of surprise in each new thing i did was cool 😉
What did i do ?! hmm .. I aced some of my tests, got some cool grades after slogging my butt out enough. Wrote an amazing code for Monte carlo simulation using a custom written Random number generator in C# in a week 😉 Drank wine in enormous amounts that my room mates are scared to host me anymore … Got a new computer for 500$ from a guy here with a mondo neat configuration. (Reminds me of the home comp back in India though .. sob sob ! ) and went to austin once and had a great time at 6th street … (just drinking and listening to live music.. what else ?!)
My only crib though was that i missed the Metallica show at San antonio. Would have loved to go if only i had some good company here .. Myla ?! When you coming here da ?? Can’t wait.
The climate is sending shivers down my spine every time i come out of the house .. the never-get-up-from-a-cozy-sleep-to-attend-class syndrome is catching up on my enthusiastic brains to taste the pleasure of comfortable warm nightmareless sleep ..
Anyway my finals are starting off next week.. I’ve haven’t posted as often i would love to post here .. but now that i have a computer at home, things are bound to change .. Will see 🙂